“Life is better when you are here with me”

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Spent the entire day packing my stuffs into boxes and arranging things accordingly so that i know who to give them to. Sent an online booking to Jetta Express this morning, and received a call that the movers will be here tomorrow in the afternoon to collect my boxes. So i have a total of 8 boxes... which is very little compared to 4 years ago, whereby i sent 15 boxes home and mum almost murdered me.

Tomorrow's gonna be another LONG day!!!
5pm meeting high school mates for farewell coffee, 7pm peking duck dinner with university mates. Then after dinner i guess i gotta rush home for final packings.

The day has finally arrived !!! Regardless of what, i must look forward to returning home. Afterall, Home is where i belong. Everybody has to go through this stage... thats what i keep reminding myself.

I am guessing i won't have much time to blog tomorrow night. Hence, i shall say what i want to say tonight...

When i returned to Melbourne beginning of last year for Uni... i had seriously mixed feelings. I came here 'double', ended up 'single'. But i am glad about it because i think i am much happier. I got to know many many people, and some of whom became close friends wif me. The best thing that ever happened may be joining MASS because thats where i found really good friends and developed memories that i will keep in my heart forever.

I am happy because Uni ended up in a good way for me. I passed all my exams and graduated with the company of many good friends. I also learnt many precious lessons along the way. I learnt not to take things for granted, and that there is definitely no forever in this world.

Towards the end of the course i also got closer to a bunch of friends whom i was not really close to before. I guess this is fate. Although we could not spend more time together, i believe this friendship will go on if we all put in the effort.

And so i tell myself... It's time to grow up, say good-bye to barbie dolls and hellokitties, and say hello to responsibilities, hardship and bills.

To a certain someone who is slowly slipping out of my heart, i sincerely hope we can continue to work hard for this relationship to blossom. But if it is not meant to be, i guess we can still be happy and seek our own happinness! Perhaps this is what the mature part of me thinks, perhaps i think i should be mature enough to face the ugly truth. Perhaps, perhaps.

Sorry for bombing this entry with boring grandma stories. But despite all these, no words can ever describe how much i appreciate the people around me. Thanks to everyone who made my life in Melbourne such a pleasant and memorable experience. I am really thankful that i have such good friends like you all.

Thank you
I miss you
and Good bye :)


Got my graduation flowers and presents back from the guys' place. I especially love the Hellokitties, the Monash t-shirt (signed by Marcus, AK, MK, Graco & Ben) and most of all, the handmade photoframe and edited photo by Frank & wine from him and Devina as well. The photo almost made me cry because sometimes i dont know if i deserve such good friends like them. As in the photo... i seriously hope for the same.. "Best Friends till the end!!!"

As i looked through my graduation photos... i was reminded of Choo again.
For a friend who never got to graduate- we still love you :)

I would also like to take this opportunity to thank everyone who attended my convocation and took the effort to come all the way to clayton to take photos with me.
Special thanks to JR, EJ & JENNY for being the photographers of the day. I really love the photos!!! - despite having loads of doraemon face photos. hahahas. And of course, my daddy, who flew all the way from malaysia! Zhengye, who had to rush her assignment because of my convo :o)

Thanks to everyone who came, i love you all!!!



Thats right...
1 more day to my convo!!! :-) excited!!!
dad's gonna bring over my burberry and ralph lauren shirts from home so i can have more choices!

this week is gonna be great! I Gotta feeling... ooooohooooh, that this week's gonna be a good week. hehehe. must be karaoke-crazie already..
And yes!!! Karaoke on thursday! damn look forward to it :)

And hopefully i can return home with a new love from Crown. hahahahhaa.
mwahmwahmwah!

Had a good night with frens celebrating JR's 21st @ KOKO (in Crown). I'm glad she really enjoyed her 21st and that its memorable too! Afterall, 21st marks an important beginning to a new path of one's life :o) and foreseeable, more burdens too.. :( but its just part and parcel of life. Hence, Happy 21st again JR!!! - for a friend who means alot to me :*)

ZhengYe & I - Thanks dear, for being there when i needed someone :)

With Graco; loves this picture because he is like a big brother to me :)

With AK; a more successful shot after several failure tries (wif the pole behind heh,heh)

The guys (from left): Foo, Graco/Grace (haha), Marcus, AK, MingKim

Finally, a formal group photo of us :o) Kudos to MK for being the outstanding one because of his hat!!!

P.S: Now for a tipsy Marcus to end this post :P

Watch Marcus trying to walk in a straight line, which was a total failure!!!

Love you all!!!

P.P.S: JR's birthday in 1.5 hours :D

I spent freaking 10 hours in Chaddy yesterday, for the VIP day. I seriously did not buy anything unncessary. Only got a foot mint lotion from Body Shop and 1/3 of the glittering body cream from CrabTree. And something at Teds Camera. And a fairyfloss, And a new super sweet pink skin for my iphone - thats all!!!

Kind of just spent the 10 hours walking around with friends. First i accompanied MK, Jenny & Anabelle to shop. Then they left for classes, i went to borders to satisfy my cravings for bridal magazines (hahahas)... for 2 hours! Caught up wif M, G & AK to pass them things... then went to shop with Anna. Then Jenny came... we had 2 dinners (seriously can't stop eating!!!) then continued to shop till shops closed.

Call me SUPERWOMAN!

I got so tired having to squeeze up the bus and having walked the whole day... that i actually felt like vomitting when i got home. The aftermath of over-shopping. heh...

Had a relatively better sleep last night compared to the other nights :D Woke up at 11.11am (no it wasn't on purpose...it was the time when i looked into my phone) and said yay its gonna be a gooden day!

Quite alot of things to get done today.
Ball is tomorrow and i almost can't fit into my dress anymore >.<

P.S: I have no idea why i am putting myself down like this. I know its so stupid but i am still doing it. guess its just the stupid little things people do in life.

Decided to delete my previous post because i am afraid someone will see it...
Well, anyway... for today.
Woke up very early because i made an appointment @ Sui for colouring hair + haircut.
This is probably going to be the last time i visit Harry @ Sui, and i feel so sad today!!! Harry always knows what i know without me saying much. He chooses the best colour and spends alot of effort in choosing highlights; this is something i haven't seen in any hairdresser i've came across all these years. I am so going to miss him!!!

Also, my head is spinning now. I haven't slept for like the past 24 hours. This is usually not something i can endure. I get very very tired but i just can't sleep well. Its either i can't move when im sleeping, or i wake up in sweats because of nightmares, or i just can't fall asleep.

Why is having a good night sleep so so so hard?

Gonna meet up wif college friends later for dinner. I seriously miss them alot alot alot.

There has been a drastic (at least for me) weather change from few days ago to today. Few days ago it was freaking cold at night... and today its just warm!

But tonight i actually enjoyed showering more than the colder nights because i get to throw on my favourite paulfrank sleepwear... - mini singlet and short pants. now i feel so light hehe.

After temple, i went to join the others at Partyworld for Fiona's 20th birthday. Karaoke was pretty good though i didn't sing alot. Was feeling pretty emo during karaoke... and many times the sad emo love songs caused tears welling in my eyes.

Then had dinner @ Mama Szechuan nearby the Verth. Honestly i didn't think its steamboat is nice... the soup was too salty, and its so hot inside. i think i could have fainted if i spent another hour inside. Hence i don't really recommend that place.

hmmm.... what should i do tomorrow???

Had a tiring day...
Went to city in the morning to do something... then shopped, till i forgot about lunch. Luckily JR called, hence we had maccas in melb central... then along with Harvey & Lyncia, we went to uni for AGM.

I HATE AGMs!!! They bring the room to super awkward silences and cause unhappiness. The only good thing is the free food afters, and i didnt have any too.

Anyway congrats to the new board of committee... the old ones are FINALLY HAPPILY RETIRED - ever after :o) haha!!!

My appetite is super good today!!! I ate alot alot for dinner and is still feel hungry now at 1.10am! Plus i had one of my favourite desserts "Or-Ni" @ Crystal Jade... makes me happy! hehe.

And i hate wind :( i hate windy days. hate hate hate.

It hurts to know that you are so busy, but there's nothing i can do to lessen your workload and burdens.

If only i have some special capabilities ...

Counting the days to see you again! xoxo

2.11am
I miss you baby.
I wonder what are you doing over there far far away?







Happy Birthday to my dearest sister!!! :) This year, you are a mother too!!! Really misses Katie Lee :) hopes she will remember Auntie June. haha okie that is so not possible.. but hmm.. :)

Haven't spoken to daddy for sometime. He's too busy to even talk to me.
What if he is not coming for my convo? Would i have to walk up the stage and collect my cert knowing there really isn't anyone who is clapping and being happy for me?

Everytime i think of it, i get super upset.

It hurts to know... after 21 years of life, that no one really cares.

Girls are actually simpler than you think :) Thats what i found out today...
Few days ago i was really upset over certain things, but today i am feeling alot better. Made plans for myself and decided to make life more meaningful rather than complaining over every little thing.

I came home from dinner smiling just because i bought 3 Kinder Surprise Chocolate Eggs. Tell me how easy it is to cheer me up :) And... i finished my choc eggs in 15 mins.

Craving for sashimi again.
Oh oh-my-god, the cruise ball is just next friday and i am so not ready. what should i do?

As JR says... "Wait and you shall be rewarded"
I shall WAIT.

They say good things are worth waiting for, but how long is too long exactly?
Haven't had a good night sleep for some time...
Since awhile ago, sleeping has become a burden for me.
All the nightmares.

Dont tell me i am too emo lately, because emo-ness is allowed during this period of time; especially with all the recent happenings.

Just when my life is at a downturn, i tell myself... things will get better, eventually.
I just need to hang on here. Be strong.

Today I fell in love with a new song... its 可以不爱了, by 梁文音... a singer i really admire :)
I can really feel the lyrics...!!!

让窗户通通都打开
让阳光通通都照进来
让风放肆的吹伞我身上的尘埃
把你的过去变腐坏
把你的溺爱藏起来
把你的所有都搬到我房间以外

现在是三点钟 你应该还没醒呢
这有点刺眼的光线 会不会打扰你呢
梦不会实现了 我应该要醒了
我不该只懂得配合 你习惯短暂的温热
我努力要自己避开 和你曾走过的地带
但是又和不舍拉扯 处在我快乐的界外
我何尝不是一个人 来决定爱的延长赛
奈何总是勉强对自己 有一个善良的交代
我努力要自己躲开 你给我的伤心地带
但是又和失去拉扯 得到的全都是意外
到现在还是一个人 吞噬着自己的能耐
到最後我可以不爱了 你却说舍不得

Can you feel it too?

Its always around this hour of the night that i become very depressed.
i suspect those days are coming back. feeling very afraid...

Love really really kills people.
and i mean, all types of love.

Must be the karma im getting...
I really should stop bitching around and pray more!!!

Btw, Happy Happy birthday gyin :) we love you!!!

The 6 of us!!! Loves this picture.

Me with Kenny Sia!!! *i heard i pushed tommy away when i saw kennysia, but i seriously cannot remember doing it. sorry tommy!!!* hahahas.