“Life is better when you are here with me”

December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 February 2011

When everything seems not to be working out well,
When the world appears to be turning its back on you...

A girls' night in saves me. :)

Hurry hurry arrange it.
I need stupid random bitchy talks!
Bliss is when i can be myself and nobody cares!!!

time for some cut-backs.

Disappointed with myself.

I can't even cook my favourite dish well anymore...
my cabbage tastes horrible. WHY!!!

all my life i loved the cabbage i cooked...
today i think it tasted seriously bad. :'(

what is wrong?
it doesnt taste like my dish anymore... huhuhu.

Ask and you shall receive.
If you don't ask, you will never know.
These 2 sentences have been living with me for quite some time. It's time i exercise them!!!
Even though the answer is not exactly the one i want to hear...
But at least it cleared some of my doubts.

To someone:
The world does not just rotate around you. I hope you can understand this, and please don't be too self-centred!

Life goes on! :)
Be strong!!!
Many thing waiting for me to do...

Amitabha~

I am super indecisive and confused right now!!! I seriously seriously needs some guidance :(

What should i do?
Should i go or not go?
Should i say or not say?
Should i trust or not trust?
Or should i just remain in the exact same position and keep praying?

arhhhhh, what should i do?!!

Fall down seven, Stand up eight.
How true and motivating can this be? Got this from a dharma sharing in facebook. I hope this motivates everyone who fell in their life. Because everyone falls, and not everyone has the courage to stand up again...

Woke up pretty late today... was supposed to satisfy my sashimi craving from last night... but because i am purely lazy!!!; hence i'll go straight to lunch and hope the craving goes down abit later. mehhhh :)

What am i gonna have for dinner? aiks... i hate thinking about what to have for each meal!!! I wish someone can just provide me with the menu and let me choose everyday.

Meanwhile, i shall run and grab lunch now !!! :o)



I feel loved :)
Thanks for doing such sweet things.

I miss Tracy, ZhiLi and WhyQueen... i miss those loved ones far far away. Can you guys come and accompany me?

At Kinch, Aijien & Eujien's place now... the others are playing mahjong and here i am... online searching for jobs.

If anyone has any good jobs recommendations please let me know!!! Thank you in advance :o)

Well before this, Eujien my chefmaster taught me how to make Mango Puddings!!! So it's done and they are waiting happily in the fridge now... Another 30 mins they should be all ready and yummy, and of cuz Pwettie!!! :D

My FIRST puddings!!! I seriously hope its gonna be goooooood.
Btw something great happened yesterday and i can't stop thinking. can't stop thinking.

It's flooding my mind...
Stay tuned for my puddings :*

whee WHEE wheeeeee !!!
I passed my final semester with flying colours! Well not exactly the best colours... but... im satisfied much much already!

Got 89 for Jap, 75 for Strat Marketing & 73 for Sales :D
HAPPY!

Thanks Buddha and Guan Yin Pu Sa for blessing me... I am really lucky!!! *though i really did put in effort*

Amitabha~

I miss you...

I absolutely... HATE this feeling.
The feeling of having to move again.
I couldn;t count the number of times i had to move away from a place which i have gotten very much used to.

i used to think its excitement.
now i think im too old for such things... i just want to stay in a place... with people i love, till the very end.

GoodBye MEWS. GoodBye Room 1, Unit 8, 1 Warley Road ! I've been here for 1.5 years and its now time i bid goodbye.
I seriously cannot bear staying somewhere else. my current room is so pink and pretty, and so comfortable... I miss ZhengYe too :'(

What am i gonna do???
I hope this feeling will go away tomorrow morning.
alright... its not going to. face it june.

And results are gonna be out tml.
Good Luck is what i need now. MORE and MORE !

And, i miss you :) as always.
Just that i aint sure, if the You, is you.

P.S: Watched Harry Potter today and loved it. Gonna watch again!

I think i behaved rather stupidly during one of those late nights out ...
I don;t usually do such things and was really uncomfortable when doing so,
but... there's always a first time in everything right?

Still... I felt rather humiliated when i saw such pictures.
Luckily the worst one wasn't put up. Else i really dont know how to face my family and friends anymore !!! :(

I should watch my behaviour next time... very much.

Sighhhhhhhhh...

Have I changed? if so...for the better or the worse? I don't even know myself...
The things i am doing... is it hurting the ones i love?

What's the point of me staying here and holding on to something that does not even exist? Why should i be putting in all the effort when i don't even know if such feelings will be replicated? Its good if it will be... but if its not... i gain Nothing at the end of the day...

Is this worth the time and effort i'm putting in?
I need some guidance... maybe its time i visit the tarot lady again...

From emo-ness to happi-ness... :D
I dyed my hair to a nice colour!!! Base colour is chocolate brown, with full head reddish highlights. I love it because Harry spent quite some time doing my highlights and i think his efforts are showing up great. I especially love my hair colour under yellow lightings!

What am i gonna do when im back to malaysia and singapore, without Harry!!??

And... I woke up this afternoon *yes because i slept at 5 plus last night* to swollen eyes. i swear i look damn bad now :( i hope the puffiness will go away soon! hopefully tml when i wake up.

Oh Tomorrow DIMSUM @ Highpoint! Looking forward to it., yumm... and after dimsum i'm gonna go get the mango pudding ingredients and rush home to PREPARE for the house party over at Aijien, Eujien and Kinch's place. I love having a great dinner and just random catch-ups with good friends, because nothing feels better :)

And steamboat on monday over at our (zhengye and me) place. Its a treat to the guys who have been extremely nice over the months.

And then its gonna be packing and more packing. then moving. HARD WORK.

THEN RESULTS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *screams* i hope its good news!!! Seriously!

Nothing much in particular...

Just that this very minute... I am missing you so so so much.

strive on , for the better future!

On the other note, had a pretty good day today... just hanging out with friends and enjoying life.
Afternoon tea was good and delicious; looking forward to it next week again!
Movie was even better! *you know what i mean...* heehee.

Watching you is the best part of my life, because i can never get bored.

Blissfulness!

Today...
I am sick
But Happy :)

happiness comes from within, and with friends and families around.
showing love.

Amitabha~

Sick again...
been sick on and off this hols... i wish i can get well soon so i can enjoy the most out of this hols!!!
Results gonna be released next friday, well next thurs night to be exact ! NERVOUS, super !!!

Please please please let me pass all my 3 units ! Amitabha~
I want to graduate ...~

Yeap yeap i have finally finished all my exams for the whole three years of my undergraduate degree!

Currently awaiting results to be published. Keeping my fingers crossed that i can pass all my 3 units and graduate!!!

Right now i don't really know whats up next for me... I keep saying i wanna do meaningful things and not waste my hols before i look for a job and begin my working life. But then all i wanna do is go karaoke and waste money on hols and food and shoppings.

i hate myself!

then again... i know i'll be able to figure sth soon. I'm planning to visit the temple and ask them if there's any volunteer work that I can help them with *meaningful* , learn sth new *meaningful* and get a temp job *meaningful* too!

I also need to make a real mango pudding as promised my friends for over a year!!! AK sent me his own mango pudding recipe and i've decided to follow it and make my very own mango pudding!!! heehee~

speaking of food.. i'm hungry again. MK's home-cooked Bakuteh later! Can't wait :o)

I have been having great hols and i love everyone!